cian2
Dalayan Master
i never really knew the appropriate time to make this post or if i should at all. but here we are. okay, i kept this under wraps for awhile but it's pretty well out there now so i just want to make my general post about this.
first of all, ive had crohn's disease and bipolar since i was 14 which makes for some interesting episodes. around jan 2013 i passed out apparently and my roommate found me and took me to the ER and i was in an anemic coma and they did a colonoscopy and found burst and potentially malignant polyps. as well as massive inflammation. colon cancer.
i dont plan on dying tomorrow or anything but i just want to throw this out there right now. it's crazy to think i've played this game for like 8 years. i think i was 20 and just casually leveling a necro on WR while raiding on WoW. i think ndhk was the top raid zone back then, either that or OP had just been released.
i probably never would have stuck around until a revisited the game a few years later (<-- reg date) and decided i was gonna actually hit it. i was living in italy at the time and ran into two people who would change everything: iance and dzillon. they got me into PR and suddenly i was raiding in this game at night then WoW on gmt+2, aka from 7pm to like 6 am.
i was kind of just another face in the crowd for a long time until i met the most important i would meet, lleoc. we clashed so often but our bond became so strong and we decided we were going to reach the top of the game no matter what. so we made dibs, established a leadership reputation and well, would "meet" (ialready knew them) zorlon and glorax and i would be invited to fwf on the condition i could bring my 2 friends: versul and lleoc
this was the golden era where fwf took off and marza was shitting out gold content and we were dropping new bosses monthly and everyone was having a great time. eventually i was made a co guild leader of fwf and a dev and well, i won't get into the dev thing but i wanted to give back to the game and i hope you guys appreciate the few things i was able to do (cesspits, ofgats, overgrowth)
SO. i'm going to miss a ton of people and most of you ive talked to one on one already so whatever.
slaariel: i am truly sorry things turned out the way we did. i know i was a drunken unstable idiot a lot of times and there was only so much you could take. i wanted to make amends with you but i don't blame you for writing me off, i probably would have too.
bango: you were a great leader and i learned a lot from you about leadership and just various life skills in general. in my opinion, you were the greatest leader this server has or will ever see.
solosolki: i worry a lot about you because we both have crazy addictive personalities and i hope you can find some stability in your life. you are a very genuine person and thats a great quality to have.
lleoc: theres not much left to say that i didn't tell you personally. i cant even articulate how much you meant to me and the fact that our relationship ended the way it did is a big regret in my life. i just hope you remember the good times more often than the bad.
marza: thank you for taking a chance on me and being patient. i feel like i really put my time in to figure out how to dev and try to learn from you in a mentor sort of way. i know it was frustrating for you at times but you never gave up on me. also, you are a genius.
dzillon: thank you giving some shitty 2k mana cleric a chance. you are probably the reason i kept playing. IS YOUR BRAIN FUCKING STOOPID?
woldaff: i know i was nothing but a pain in your ass but please believe me when i say my intentions were good, i just dont have a good mental compass.
im sure ill edit this a million more times but finally:
Everyone who put up with me, from Phoenix Rising to Sacred Band to Fair Weather Friends, those of who dealt with my shortcomings as a guild leader and helped me out (erude jraul kiseble glorax vartenaal tinkaa) THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. this is just an internet video game but the people are real and life is so fleeting that i hope you all cherish the time you have.
colin
first of all, ive had crohn's disease and bipolar since i was 14 which makes for some interesting episodes. around jan 2013 i passed out apparently and my roommate found me and took me to the ER and i was in an anemic coma and they did a colonoscopy and found burst and potentially malignant polyps. as well as massive inflammation. colon cancer.
i dont plan on dying tomorrow or anything but i just want to throw this out there right now. it's crazy to think i've played this game for like 8 years. i think i was 20 and just casually leveling a necro on WR while raiding on WoW. i think ndhk was the top raid zone back then, either that or OP had just been released.
i probably never would have stuck around until a revisited the game a few years later (<-- reg date) and decided i was gonna actually hit it. i was living in italy at the time and ran into two people who would change everything: iance and dzillon. they got me into PR and suddenly i was raiding in this game at night then WoW on gmt+2, aka from 7pm to like 6 am.
i was kind of just another face in the crowd for a long time until i met the most important i would meet, lleoc. we clashed so often but our bond became so strong and we decided we were going to reach the top of the game no matter what. so we made dibs, established a leadership reputation and well, would "meet" (ialready knew them) zorlon and glorax and i would be invited to fwf on the condition i could bring my 2 friends: versul and lleoc
this was the golden era where fwf took off and marza was shitting out gold content and we were dropping new bosses monthly and everyone was having a great time. eventually i was made a co guild leader of fwf and a dev and well, i won't get into the dev thing but i wanted to give back to the game and i hope you guys appreciate the few things i was able to do (cesspits, ofgats, overgrowth)
SO. i'm going to miss a ton of people and most of you ive talked to one on one already so whatever.
slaariel: i am truly sorry things turned out the way we did. i know i was a drunken unstable idiot a lot of times and there was only so much you could take. i wanted to make amends with you but i don't blame you for writing me off, i probably would have too.
bango: you were a great leader and i learned a lot from you about leadership and just various life skills in general. in my opinion, you were the greatest leader this server has or will ever see.
solosolki: i worry a lot about you because we both have crazy addictive personalities and i hope you can find some stability in your life. you are a very genuine person and thats a great quality to have.
lleoc: theres not much left to say that i didn't tell you personally. i cant even articulate how much you meant to me and the fact that our relationship ended the way it did is a big regret in my life. i just hope you remember the good times more often than the bad.
marza: thank you for taking a chance on me and being patient. i feel like i really put my time in to figure out how to dev and try to learn from you in a mentor sort of way. i know it was frustrating for you at times but you never gave up on me. also, you are a genius.
dzillon: thank you giving some shitty 2k mana cleric a chance. you are probably the reason i kept playing. IS YOUR BRAIN FUCKING STOOPID?
woldaff: i know i was nothing but a pain in your ass but please believe me when i say my intentions were good, i just dont have a good mental compass.
im sure ill edit this a million more times but finally:
Everyone who put up with me, from Phoenix Rising to Sacred Band to Fair Weather Friends, those of who dealt with my shortcomings as a guild leader and helped me out (erude jraul kiseble glorax vartenaal tinkaa) THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. this is just an internet video game but the people are real and life is so fleeting that i hope you all cherish the time you have.
colin